About Me

I write because I don’t know what I think until I read what I say.
― Flannery O’Connor

I’ve never been good at this so what you see below is a sort of self-introduction, over-dramatised, a throwback to the first post on this blog and personal, in a way. It’s rambling but based on what goes on in my head almost every day. or you could start here if you’re visiting for the first time.

hello, I’m D!

For memories that propel us, wounds that run deep and people who teach.

~the introduction~

I don’t remember the time I started talking to myself. Or the time I imagined my first imaginary friend into being. But I’m constantly reminded of how much it has potentially changed me as a person. I know I think too much, way more than adults think is healthy. I formulate responses, plan escapes, prepare for circumstances before I’ve even entered into a conversation.

~the weird part~

I often end up being the weird one, the kid who’s too lost to know she’s already on a path. And I admit, I do pass as weird if you pass as what’s considered normal or I pass as normal if you’re weird. I think it’s all about perspective. But when there are only 10 people and they all think almost alike, there’s an army attesting to my weirdness.

I feel left out, and feel like nothing matters when I get pulled into conversations concerning people I’ve never met, people who thrive on fame and wealth. I don’t have anything against fame or money or comfort, I just think it’s redundant to talk about them when neither party is benefitting from the conversation and sustaining loss of their time.

I like reading movie plots instead of watching the whole thing; I enjoy envisioning people from words than taking in another’s portrayal and I’m too impatient to sit through a movie unless I really want to watch it. I sometimes end up rambling, talking too much if I’m annoyed. I get scared easily, though I don’t do a good job of showing it. I love the night, be it going out for a walk or simply sitting under the sky, but I’d be terrified if I ended up locked in a dark room.

Photo by HIDDEN COUPLE on Pexels.com

~random thoughts~

I used to enjoy jokes, I still spend time replaying memes in my head but it’s been a while I’ve heard a joke, in person. The classic riddle kinds because no one says that anymore. Most jokes these days have an underlying creepy tone and you probably won’t get them if you don’t use social media like the average human.

I have an almost eerie amount of self-awareness, I seem to know quite a bit about my surroundings when I’m not supposed to. I feel concerned for strangers. Sometimes I wonder about how many stories go unwritten, and I feel like immortality might be interesting if I get to write every person’s story. Sometimes I sense pain in a fleeting gaze, anger in a smile or concern when someone talks about groceries.

~interests~

I write more than I think I should. I started with stories, found out journalling was therapeutic and somehow fell into Poetry. I don’t think they’re good but they’re human and I like to think it’s what provides essence to our basic sense of humanity. I wish to remain a lifelong student and I love getting feedback and constructive criticism on all that I do.

And finally, I have conflicting interests. I don’t write or talk about it much on here, but I love Science – more than English or writing or even art. I’m sometimes ashamed of the thought because I think Science can be art too or maybe because I understand writing better than I’ll ever understand Science. Science more often than not, makes me feel dumb but I crave that need to learn more, to understand how we came into being or why we did. It’s got this whole aura of discovery and exploration and has a purpose in its gait.

And I’m a Christian. Science and religion just don’t seem to go hand in hand, at least not yet but I desperately want them to. Can you imagine a world where there’s a solid explanation and concrete proof for religious and scientific theories? I can and I can’t but I want to. I don’t like death but I like thinking about whether it’s an end, a checkpoint, a new beginning or just a process.

Photo by Raphael Brasileiro on Pexels.com

~more thoughts~

It’s a random world and I love how there’s no algorithm to predict where our humanity leads us. There’s no rhythm to pain or anxiety. Grief can be an authentic journey of self-discovery and it hurts so much but there’s a blinding light that carries you through. The pattern where joy and sorrow seem to end up in a cycle is comforting but we never know how long they might last.

I’m a random teen, lost but enjoying every second of this unpredictability that life casts. Not because it’s fun but because the uncertainty has a certain charm to it, it’s not beautiful or thrilling, just charming. The way you feel when the book you’re reading is interesting, not good or bad but interesting and you want that second to just ponder on life, not think what comes next and turn the page in your own time.

It’s a random world and I’m calling it art because it justifies my over-analyzing it.

Random art, it is.

And when random is art, I like to think we all are.

Photo by Alex Andrews on Pexels.com

We don’t read and write poetry because it’s cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race, and the human race is filled with passion.
Robin Williams In Dead Poets Society

hello hello hello!!

Oh, and my pet dog, Willy who is a six-years-old Pug is my best friend. You’ll be seeing him here every now and then!
(Click here to read what he had to say when a cat interviewed him!)

~the following are relevant to this page in their own ways~

Please note that the stock images used in blog posts are (usually) from Pexels or Unsplash and the graphics are designed by me, using Canva. The author avatar was designed by myself using a stock image as a reference.
© Random Specific Thoughts 2022

60 thoughts on “About Me

  1. Thank you so much! I’m glad it comes off like that. I wouldn’t want anyone taking it seriously 😂. The cats are really great as well! Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment!
    But I’m afraid the comment has been dropped on my ‘About’ page rather than on the Procrastination post. No worries, anyway! Take care!

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  2. You sound like a very neat person and I am looking forward to reading more of your work! (Also I can understand the feeling that old words don’t fit you anymore. I recently deleted my old blog because it just felt so out of place!)

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  3. Wonderful blog !!! Even am a die heart potterhead… though am a gryffindor but would love to b frnds… after all slytherin n gryffindor can also b frnds like Albus Severus potter n Scorpius Malfoy

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  4. Ich denke
    wer aus
    der Seele
    schreibt

    ob es gefällt
    oder nicht

    der Versuch
    ihre Sprache
    zu übersetzen
    das ist genug

    ***

    I think
    who from
    the soul
    writes

    whether others like it
    or not

    the attempt
    their language
    to translate
    that’s enough

    Herzliche Grüße
    Hans

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  5. That is a beautiful poem.
    ‘whether others like it
    or not’
    That is such a profound line. As writers, it is important to believe in ourselves and accept feedback from others at the same time.
    Thank you so much for your inspiring comment!

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  6. Your blog is beautiful! So happy you discovered a love for poetry, we’re all works in the making. And even if you think it’s not good, I’m sure there’s someone who loves it nonetheless! Imperfection just makes art more beautiful 💕 Also, I love experimenting in Canva too!
    So glad I stumbled across your blog! Take care 🤗

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  7. Thank you so much! The pleasure is mine!
    Blog buttons are basically images that are considered as a sort of blog logo. You exchange these with other bloggers so that more people can visit your blog. You put their button on your blog(as in save their logo as an image and insert the link to their blog and display it on your blog) and they’ll put yours on their blog.
    I used an app called Canva to make mine. It’s very easy to use and has a logo template you can use to design your own blog button. Hope that helped! Feel free to raise any queries!
    Aw.. thank you so much!! I’m so glad you like it.❤️

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  8. WOAH YOUR SITE IS EPIC!!! How did you do this?!?! I mean with the background image, layout, and design, your site is amazing! You seem really nice and blogging is a cool way to express your thoughts and I find writing very therapeutic! Take care!

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  9. Thank you so much!!👏😂
    My blog runs on a theme called Afterlight, it allows for a background image of your choice. And I designed the graphics with the help of Canva! I’m so glad you like it!!
    Aw… thanks! I agree! Writing is therapeutic!
    Thank you so much for stopping by!!✨

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  10. Afterlight, I like that, sounds so pretty! You’ve got a gift for graphic design. I recently started using Canva and it is so easy to use!

    Keep it up with these posts and I’ll be along for the ride! 🙂

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  11. When we write something, it is important to us or we would not be writing it to paper. For me, that is enough. Much of what I write may never be shared with anyone. That is ok. By writing it down, I have shared it with me. There are oft times when I think of something I want to write down and will make a special effort to try and remember. Then when I begin to write it, I have forgotten my original thought. Sometimes I write it in spite of, and other times I leave it. Sometimes the revision of what I thought initially is better than the original thought.

    Have a wonderful day! I enjoy reading what you write!

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  12. That is absolutely true. I agree with all of it, every word.
    I love the notion of having shared it with oneself when they write it down. I can totally relate to that!! I have to edit for days before I think I can put it out there.
    Thank you so very much! This means a lot to me.
    You too! I find your works incredibly thoughtful!❤️

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  13. Oh Canva is great! I was using Fotor before, but they didn’t have as many nice nice free templates as Canva. I’m sure your site looks amazing because it was created by you! 🙂

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  14. Just love it and thank you so much for visiting my blog and liking posts.
    Been meaning to comment but in these challenging times and pre Christmas preparations things have been busy.
    Sorry, what is your name?
    Thank you
    Margaret 🙂❤️💁🏻‍♀️

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  15. Hey!
    That’s great! I was fortunate enough to go to a school that encouraged reading (and writing too) from Kindergarten onwards, so I ended up loving reading and had a few reading buddies too!
    Thank you so much! The feeling’s mutual!

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