18

“Remember, it’s still a mystery to be an adult. If you knew it all before eighteen, you’d have nothing to look forward to.”
― Carew Papritz, The Legacy Letters: his Wife, his Children, his Final Gift

I imagine 18 to be my first step to independence and my first whiff of free will and freedom and everything beautiful. I imagine 18 to be a door to a world where I can learn whatever I want, buy as many books as I want, make scrapbooks and simply live. 18 is that world of love where you get to pave the path for your life, where you spent your days learning that one subject that you love so much that it keeps you up at night in a manic frenzy to understand and learn more.

18 is beautiful and terrifying – a perfectly balanced mixture of chaos, a world free of high school drama and devoid of ‘You’re too young to say things like that’ and I look forward to that sense of humane acknowledgement. When I hear 18, I envision late nights poring over books about things I truly want to learn under skies speckled with stars and driving aimlessly with music blaring, fearless and independent.

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I look forward to exerting my right of being a citizen and voicing political opinions and asking daring questions where I can no longer be told “You’re too young to understand.” There is a certain recklessness that accompanies the first step to adulthood, an impulsive need for acknowledgement and a pre-requisite respect that adults command by virtue of being an adult but I rather feel numb about it all.

I don’t mind bidding farewell to childhood or teenage, but I desperately hope I can keep my poor sense of humour and remain impartial to the world and continue to see everything as a child would – daring and raw.

I’m going to be that adult that doesn’t think children can have opinions worth sharing – I would rather turn to them for advice and I’m going to be a child with them. I’m going to play tag and pore over memes and fangirl over books. And when the time’s right, we’ll grow up together.

“Where should I go?” -Alice
“That depends on where you want to end up.” – The Cheshire Cat
― Lewis Carroll, Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland / Through the Looking-Glass

Thoughtfully yours,
D

If you’re comfortable with it, tell me what you were or are excited about turning 18!

I feel like I’ll come back to this post a few years from now and laugh at my naive 18-year old self for being so soaked in fantasy but I’m going to enjoy this state of recklessness while it lasts!


On a sadder note, this will be the last post on Random Specific Thoughts for a while. I hope to post once a month while on hiatus and be back by June/July but none of it is set in stone. As always, I appreciate your constant support more than words could say.

71 thoughts on “18

  1. Those are great thoughts, and I shared the same desires when I turned 18. Sadly, I wish we had a better world to hand you. Best of luck, you’ll shine no matter what. Of that, I’m certain!

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  2. My head was definitely spinning when I turned 18! Although, at that time, it was becoming apparent that your brain is still developing for another 7 years, so I was curious at how much more I would develop in that time

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  3. Wishing you all the very best! A lesson I wish I had learned at 18? That I am a worthy individual and that I needed to teach myself to like and then to love myself. Took me decades to learn that lesson and how to do it! It’s a practice which needs to keep happening; it’s not necessarily a one and done deal! So worthwhile to do!!

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  4. Wow! Your writing is really heart touching! The way you express the emotions and feelings here is so wonderful. I always look forward to reading your writings as your writing always inspires me. And congrats on turning 18! Have a wonderful journey in life!!❤

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  5. Oohhh I don’t know what I feel about it. I’m going to be 18 in a few months but I don’t really know what to think about it. It’s weird but tempting at the same time. As a child, I had wonderful dreams of becoming an adult, and now I don’t even know what to make of it😂 Whatever be it, your post was lovely 😍

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  6. Wishing you the happiest birthday, D!!
    Sending tons of love, luck and power your way! 💖💗💓

    I most certainly count you in the list of people I cherish the most in the blogging community. I believe you were 16 when we first connected, and now, the fact that you are officially an adult seems so surreal.

    I loved how raw this is, how reckless, fearless and independent you want to be. Enjoyed reading this blog post to the core!

    Happy Birthday once again, have a ball!!
    And I hope you have the most fantastic year ahead 💞✨

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  7. oh my goodness ❤️❤️
    this post reminds me so much of my own feelings toward turning 18!!
    i’m fast approaching 22 now, but i still have so many adulthood dreams to chase and enjoy. my circumstances put many of my ideas and plans in hibernation, but they’re slowly emerging like butterflies from their cocoons 🥰❤️ I can’t wait for them all!
    happy birthday d! love you + wish you the best of luck with your studies and blogging this year!

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  8. We will miss you! Enjoy your hiatus, which will no doubt be busy with school and life. Your post made me smile, remembering being 18. You have an incredible mindset! 😊 Best to you, Deepthy. 💐

    I adore this sentence:
    “… continue to see everything as a child would – daring and raw” ✨

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  9. I hope you have a well-rested hiatus and take care of yourself! Happy 18th Birthday, D! I don’t really remember my life as an 18-year-old. I just remember that I was a very dramatic high schooler that worried about every single thing that I said. I’m still like that, but not as bad as my teenage years.

    I love this part: “I don’t mind bidding farewell to childhood or teenage, but I desperately hope I can keep my poor sense of humour and remain impartial to the world and continue to see everything as a child would – daring and raw.” As we get older and life gets more stressful, most adults tend to forget what it was like as a child and they forget how to enjoy life. It’s kind of hard to explain.

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  10. Omg congrats on turning 18!! (I would put 18 exclamation points, but it might look overwhelming hehe). I love how you expressed your thoughts, and while I’m not turning 18 soon, I resonated with a lot of what you said here!

    “When I hear 18, I envision late nights poring over books about things I truly want to learn under skies speckled with stars and driving aimlessly with music blaring, fearless and independent.” You really got me here 😂. this sounds absolutely wonderful!!

    “I’m going to be that adult that doesn’t think children can have opinions worth sharing – I would rather turn to them for advice and I’m going to be a child with them. I’m going to play tag and pore over memes and fangirl over books. And when the time’s right, we’ll grow up together.” Omg this reminds me of Anne from Anne of Green Gables and her perspective about growing up! I remember her telling Marilla about how when she’s a grown up, she’ll listen to children and never laugh about them trying to use big words, because she knows what it’s like and she wants to show them that she cares 😊.

    I hope you’ve had a great start to 2022, Deepthy, and I look forward to chatting with you again, whenever that may. Sending a big hug!!

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  11. Awww how exciting to be 18! I will be 18 in four months which is kind of hard to believe and I find this quite relatable. I am excited for the independence and the sweet new adventures that come with this exciting age! 😀
    I will miss seeing you around as much and I will see you again when you come back!!
    *hugs!!
    -kaelyn 😀

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  12. Happy birthday D! I hope you have a brilliant day. While I’m not turning 18 for 4 more years I still found this post relatable, which I think says a lot about growing up in general.
    I’m so glad that you are going to be an adult who listens to children, as I think so often they have such important points to make, but are disregarded simply for the reason that society thinks they are ‘too young’.
    I hope the start to your year has been great and I wish you all the best for the next chalet of your life.
    I hope you enjoy your well deserved break, and I hope to see you around soon.
    -Sylvie

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  13. Happy 18th Birthday: I’m afraid you will wake up the next day realizing nothing magical has happened. You are still you and you will continue learning for the rest of your life. (I know that about you.) Life IS an adventure and I hope you enjoy it as much as I do. Cheers, Muriel

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  14. These are very mature thoughts for an eighteen-year-old, Hon. I grew up at sixteen when I was expected to get my driver’s license so I could get a job and cover my own expenses (by working after school hours and Saturdays ) so my dad could begin college after 21 years in the Navy, with two wars under his belt, on the GI Bill. I didn’t actually have to contribute to the family expenses, but I was expected to look after my own needs like clothes and school supplies. By nineteen, I was married and went directly from my father’s home to my husband’s. Eighteen was somewhere in between those two. Enjoy what girlhood you have left while you can, dear, and even though I am all of 77, I still experience childhood joy and silliness from time to time. Life is much easier now than at age 18.

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  15. Ohh, these were beautiful thoughts, D! You’ve written it out so well.
    I haven’t thought much about when I’ll become 18… but I think I don’t ever want to leave all the immature fun, hehe.
    And like you said, “when the time’s right, we’ll grow up together.”
    This was lovely!
    See you soon!

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  16. You have a maturity way beyond 18 years 🙂 and thank you for all the wisdom you have so generally shared. Happy 18th birthday D ❤ and all the best with all your future endeavours

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  17. That’s interesting to hear! I appreciate the concern. I guess we could always strive to make things better!
    Thank you so much! That’s kind of you to say!

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  18. Haha, I can totally relate to that! That’s a fascinating thought – I look forward to see how I change!
    Thank you so much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts!

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  19. Oh! – we’re kind of the same age!! That’s why exciting 😂
    Ahh I can relate to what you’re feeling – it’s been a weird thing to turn 18, it felt so sudden like I grew up in a day.
    Aw thank you so much ❤️

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  20. Thank you so very much, Ana! I hope the new year is treating you well!

    Aww I’m so humbled to hear that! Needless to say, I consider you a dear friend too!
    Haha, I was – it seems so long ago!
    I’m glad you did! Thank you so much!💖💖

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  21. Wow, that’s interesting to hear! Aw haha, I’m sure you do – you seem to be keeping up a wonderful momentum to get there in no time! ❤️
    Goodness, that’s a stunning analogy! Me neither!
    Thank you so much, Maggie! You too!💖

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  22. Aw I’m already missing this place and everyone here.
    Thank you so much! Haha, school’s the cause most of the time!😖
    That’s wonderful to hear! I’m humbled you think so!
    You too! I hope your life continues to be the beautiful journey it is!💖
    Aw thank you! I adore the way children process life – it seems different from 18’s vantage point 😂

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  23. Thank you so much, Lana! It’s been going okay so far!
    Aw you and me both. Except I still do, haha!
    I get what you mean. It’s like I see everything kind of differently now..
    Hope you’re doing great!❤️

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  24. Aw haha, let’s hope it lasts! It’s been an absolute honor to share what I write with everyone here! Thank you so so much for you constant support!❤️

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  25. Thank you, Ms Rae! Times have changed so much – 16 was all school for me, I barely recall anything else.
    Wow, that’s an awful lot of experience with war. I suppose growth was more out of necessity than choice back then. My parents seem to have their fair share of stories about growing up.
    Thank you so very much for sharing a part of your journey, Ms Rae! I feel blessed to have gotten to know you!🤗💕
    I’m so glad to hear that! Childhood joy is timeless, haha! I have to agree with that!😂❤️

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  26. Thank you so much! Haha, that’s a good bit of reality to embrace before it knocks me down!
    Aw thank you – I do enjoy learning! I agree and hope we all do!💖

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  27. Thank you so much, Sylvie! I’m glad you found it relatable! 18 has been okay so far, I hope it stays this way 😂
    Aw I’m touched you think so! I agree – many a times I’ve felt children could contribute more in certain circumstances if they were permitted to.
    That’s kind of you, Sylvie! I hope your year is going great as well!💖

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  28. Ooh, I don’t know about exciting, maybe interesting?😂
    Oh yay! We’re kind of the same age, that’s cool!
    I can relate to that! I hope you have a fantastic 18!
    Aw I’ll miss you guys too!❤️
    *hugs

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  29. Haha, thank you so much, Eleanor! I’m pleased you liked it and could relate!
    Yay!😂 As intimidating as 18 sounds, it’s always the door to independence! I hope I last school to step through it😂
    Aw that’s really sweet of you to mention, Eleanor! I remember this bit where she says you have to use big words for big ideas!
    Aw me too! Hope you’re doing great! Back at you!❤️

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  30. I’m glad your hiatus is off to a good start! Exactly! As time goes on, we look at both past and present experiences differently. I’m doing well, thanks!

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  31. Thanks for the reply Hon, and for letting me ramble on. I enjoy your blog so very much. I don’t always comment, but I never miss one. I especially appreciate your poetry, and I consider myself knowledgeable in that area. LOL

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  32. Omg! I wish I had found this a few days back! I turned 18 just a few days back on 18th actually and I was excited and nervous at the same time!! But guess what, nothing magical happened after I turned 18, apart from the ritual of getting vaccinated.. haha! I still get scolding like a kid😅🤣
    I’m saving the starting quote, I’ll need it someday, I feel!
    Loved this post, D! Inspirational and profound❤❤

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