Blues and Petals

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“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.”
― Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

I know the day is perfect the moment I open my eyes and see a crow at my window, with a brilliant blue sky beckoning to me. The day is perfect because I sense the pall of blue hanging over the world.

Life wouldn’t be perfect if it was all giggles and presents.

As I hear the cuckoo bird chime 8’O clock, I head out for school. It’s a short journey but I look forward to seeing how my world changed overnight. I remember the day I spoke to a stranger I’d see everyday on my way home from school, and learning I’d been living, shamelessly unaware of how he was our neighbour. He died the next day, no one quite knows how.

Since then, I see how enormously huge every second is, they whizz past so quickly but they remain engraved in the past.

I don’t see anything new although the store at the corner of the street hasn’t opened for the day yet. The stray I named Leah, is up and running, buses are right on schedule and I see our regular church-going neighbours, home from church and prepping for the day.

It’s lovely to see how life goes on on a path of its own, something we call routine in our little spheres.

With a pang of anxiety, I realise today’s the deadline for our group project and day we’re having a Calculus test. I’ve paved the way for the first few blues for today – how perfect indeed! I make hasty plans for a revision and estimate how many minutes I’ll get, to complete the project before the deadline.

I’m prepping for a war with time, yet again.

Same old, same old.

I feel like school came with a mental package I didn’t sign up for. I can’t remember the last time I spoke to someone and felt good about it and not awkward.

Life was a lot easier in middle school – everyone laughed in my face. Now they do it behind my back.

Any fool can be happy. It takes a man with real heart to make beauty out of the stuff that makes us weep.
― Clive Barker, Abarat: Days of Magic, Nights of War

The road home is contoured with leaves and petals, indications of a strong wind having passed through earlier. The very sight of the petal brimmed road, sets my heart at ease and reminds me of how gorgeous life is, when I look at it through the lens of a petty human.

Each petal and leaf are crafted to perfection, each curve and crevice complementing the other.

Pappa says we have angels in heaven, who are tasked with moulding each petal and grain of sand to the extent that perfection is redefined every moment.

I see the shadows falling on all the right places, creating a flawless sight sculpted to the highest pinnacle of beauty – an artist’s dream.

A perfectly happy life is a myth but I realise that being content with what we have, finding joy in the littlest of things, is undoubtedly the next best thing.

Besides I have a variety of lenses through which to view the world. That of a student, a daughter, sister and the more widely used ones of an overthinker and wanderer; all adorn my arsenal of lenses and I know at least one of them will show me what the other missed.

To be content with little is difficult; to be content with much, impossible.
― Marie von Ebner-Eschenbach, Aphorisms

I know everything will be fine as my dog welcomes me home, wagging his too-short tail to the best of his ability. The rest of the day proceeds as it always does.

I answer the quotidian questions of ‘How was school?’, do my homework and fall asleep while drawing or writing.

Now all I have to do is patiently wait till the sun decides to come by again.

The ninety and nine are with dreams, content, but the hope of the world made new, is the hundredth man who is grimly bent on making those dreams come true.
― Edgar Allan Poe

Thoughtfully yours,
D

*Willy is my five year old pet dog. He’s a pug (hence the short tail remark) and my best friend too!

I tried to draw him but as you can see it did not turn out well. Click here to read his answers to a cat’s questions!

27 thoughts on “Blues and Petals

  1. D, this post is so authentically beautiful! I am simply blown away, what marvelous writing!!! And your drawing is so adorable, I don’t think it’s bad at all!!! Another amazing piece, my amazing friend. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻🤗🖤

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  2. Dear D, this is very much relatabl. ❣️
    I see the honesty in this post and how it’s so true in our so called routine life. Very well written dear. Oh and the drawing is really cute. ❤️❤️ Have a wonderful week dear D. 🤝

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  3. I love that you talked about how a perfect day is not necessarily just petals—rather, it is when the petals outweigh the blues. For without blues, we wouldn’t know petals, and without petals, we wouldn’t know blues. Cyclical like that, isn’t it? 🙂

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  4. In reality
    nobody can
    the other
    recognize in his being

    we are all
    Children in history
    a short time

    the fool
    I run myself
    daily alongside
    and it is often
    what i done
    that make me angry
    and makes me cry

    the fallen angels
    fall with their arrogance
    like black ones
    poisonous leaves from
    Sky tree
    in the hot desert sand

    I have to
    neither to exert joy
    nor the sadness
    tear from my heart

    with little or a lot
    entanglement
    and attachment to things

    the diversity of life
    is considered a secret
    in our hearts

    the dream
    comes from within
    towards us

    the dream is
    the mouthpiece of the soul
    the us
    if we want that
    brings to new insight

    the truth
    is in doing and not
    in particular
    for us humans in between

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  5. At its foundation, engaging writing (for me) is the creation of a single sentence that makes the reader pause, that stands out and stands alone as a story on its own. You do that over and over again, and you do that with poetic creativity and sensibilities. I absolutely love this! 💐

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  6. D… I cannot express in words how amazing a read this was. The section about lenses? And the description about how life carries on without us noticing? Just perfect.
    I loved the little pros-cons type list at the end! <3333333
    FANTASTIC work once again!! ;D
    (PS: The title is such an absolute d r e a m, my heart is so happy-)

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  7. Aw I’m so happy you found it relatable!! Haha, I’m glad you did – it’s beautiful and monotonic at the same time. Aw thank you!! You too, Preeths!!🤗❤️

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  8. I’m so happy to hear that! I do believe a perfect day is when we have more reasons to be happy than sad. Brilliantly said, Eleanor! It sure is! Thank you so much for reading! Hope you’re doing well!💕

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  9. Aw, I’m so humbled you think so! It’s nice to think that there’s a story behind everything we see or read. Even here on WordPress, I like to believe it’s what makes every blogger stand out!
    Thank you so much for taking the time to read! I so appreciate you sharing your take on this! 💖

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  10. Ahh it means so much to me that you liked this! Haha lenses enhance our vision 😂
    Aw thank you! It was super messy until Diamond suggested I change it up to a more minimal looking one 😂👏
    Thank you so much!! AW YAY!❤️

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  11. Oh how I loved this post today! I had copied the quote about the not cold, but sad man, then “parked” the post to read later. That was because, unknownst to me, I NEEDED this post today. I had been wallowing in the blues of recovery and relapses from a hospitalization when I needed to notice the petals: a call from a new friend that lost my card and has been trying to track me down for two months; some cheery emails and texts from dear friend who are praying about my PET scan tomorrow; and now, dear, your post as a reminder to stay positive and not give into the blues. TY!

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  12. Ahh it makes me so happy to hear that!! I hope you’re feeling much better and the scan went well! Thank you so very much for taking the time to read and share your thoughts, Ms.Rae! You’ve made my day! Have a lovely Sunday ❤️

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